Beautiful Cervix Project

I am so in love with this site and recommend all woman to check it out.  It's interesting in many ways how the cervix changes from woman to woman.  It's an aspect of our bodies that we can learn from and in my opinion something we don't really acknowledge.  I hope to start my own Cervix project to document my infertility issues, but also me to understand what's happening at certain times of the month.  I didn't realize how much the cervix moves, how much mucous forms and how the menstrual cycle looks from a cervical view.  Enjoy the site please called the Beautiful Cervix Project

Celebrity Pregnancy

I read a very interesting column this morning about Beyonce possibly faking her pregnancy and I mean really.  Beyonce has far better things to do than conjure up a story about pregnancy, which had me feeling somewhat sorry for celebrity mums who are under the watchful eye of the public 24/7.  Their pregnancy no longer becomes their own and the growth of their baby bumps comes under public scrutiny.  Who is anyone to judge the size that any woman should be during pregnancy? Are reporters, readers and paparazzi truly blaze' about pregnancy, that their questioning and nit picking is evidence of how dumb and clueless people are about pregnancy?  I'm starting to think so.  Anyone who has been pregnant knows that your bump either shows sooner than most or not until well past the 12 week mark, does not call for a fake pregnancy that's for sure.  Grow the heck up people. Australia, really? Making mince meat out of a privileged interview with this centuries diva and then turning into a scandal says something about how thick this country is.  Shame on you!!!

Birth Trauma

Why I watch 16 and pregnant is beyond me, yet I love birth and can't help but watch.  I am surprised at celebrity birth and with the release of 'Business of being Born' a closer look at birthing has certainly come about.  I watched an episode of a young mum who experienced her labor in a manner that had my heart breaking for her.  Her cries and screams as she was laboring had me wonder if this kind of birth trauma, prevents young mums from birthing vaginally? It's just a question after all, but certainly one that the producers were trying to capture to possibly prevent teen pregnancies.  Questionable yet possible.  I also wondered if the information that these new mums are given (failures to progress) was just cause to perform a C Section and if this information will be taken as gospel when they become grandparents.  Holding their daughters hand or in some cases, legs wide open, on their backs and giving birth then telling them that because I too had a C Section, your my daughter so it means your failure to progress means you too will have a C Section.  I was a doula for a lady who had already had a previous C Section, as did her mother and in her mind it meant she too had the same failure to progress.  Which meant she had already accepted a C Section was on the cards.  As mothers, aunties, mentors, guardians and woman, we are all responsible for our girls and their birth experience or trauma.  What would happen if your words about birth were nothing but positive and accepting of what birth brings.  Even if this means that a C Section takes place, at least in a holistic sense.  Your mind had prepared and in your own spirit it was what was needed to bring your baby into the world.

Do I have a birth fear?

While writing my birth stories, I had a slight remembrance of the labor and birthing.  Maybe it was due to the stinking (not literally stink, but annoying) dysentery that I have, caused by whipped cream on scones (one sure way to activate lactose intolerance) Am I thinking that I don't want to feel the labor pains again, why fertility is an issue? Don't think so, reason being is I loved labor and all that came with it.  Does it seem weird that I never push my babies out?  I breath my babies out of me because in all honesty I couldn't stop them heading for the door.  When they were ready to arrive, they did just that.  Some slight impatience issues thanks to my side of the family maybe. There's a sense of "job well done" feeling after and who doesn't like that feeling.

Fertility II

Okay, now that I've moved past my obsession with placenta capsules etc I'm back to my next favorite subject. Yes fertility. I've trolled many websites looking for the elusive sperm meets egg meets baby method, that guarantees conception. While many promise this, it's never as easy as first thought and it's never as clear cut as anticipated. There's so many factors that come into play and so many obstacles which effect every aspect that in all honesty. I had no idea that it takes so much effort to get pregnant. That is until I became a guinea pig and my own best trial project for all the many ways to have a baby. The amount of information is so overwhelming and figuring out where to start and where to source the best possible advice is very tiring. I get mind jumbled and resign, before I find the next breath to continue. Where do I plan on starting? How will I tackle this in a logical, practical and affordable way? Because infertility is fricken expensive, should you choose to take on all the natural supplement advice. Not to mention if you choose the infertility clinics where you are definitely out of pocket. Infertility is so common that I was so ignorant to it's effects until I realized I wanted another baby. Oh yes roll your eyes if you must, but I'm planning a winning formula here that's right for me and my body. If you so wish to or are interested in fertility information, I have added links to the side bar to point you there. I know for a fact some of the information was right for me, but I still feel that I needed to have a starting point to continue on from. I did however enjoy the fertility diet information and smoothie recipes, but want to tweak these to make them applicable to me. Over the next steps I will go through the stages of my body, leading up to being at this point of life. In the hope I can pin point when exactly my body clock packed up to go on holiday. What lifestyle changes I made and what lifestyle changes I will be making. Monday feels like ages away, but it's from that day that things will happen and things as in fertility may kick in. I'll also be considering the male aspect in terms of fertility because it's not a one person affair. I do need my significant other to fulfill his role in this path too. He's already given up smoking and alcohol has been at it's all time low in a while, I'm so proud of him. Next step is having his sperm tested :-/ an ordeal he's not looking forward to and one I feel sorry for him about. At least then we can rule out the need for possible medical intervention as I know that I have sufficient egg quantities, Fallopian activity is certainly in order and best off all medical condition is ideal. Let's hope that Monday will be a day I start the steps to a new life.